8 big things I learned in life

As I became more aware of the fact that I am getting older, I wanted to reflect what I learned over the past few years to see how far I've gone in my growth.

-Confident
I became more confident in myself. I stopped asking anyone that I came in contact with about life or career decisions. I'm the one in charge of my life.

-Personal boundaries
I realize that there is a time for myself and for socializing if needed. I didn't grasp what it meant to be alone and to be with others. For example, if I want some alone time, I can close the door to my room, and have private time for myself. If I want to socialize, then I would open the door.

-Mood
I am more in control of my mood with others. I used to feel really offended when someone criticize me or says something hurtful. I now am in control and am able to stand up for myself. For example, my mother would try to criticize my choices in what I do, like I spend too much time on my computer or even say things to me that I don't really agree with. I remain calm and collected and move on.

-Respecting myself
I used to please others. I didn't value my time. This even bled into my career. I didn't even think I could get paid to work at an office setting.I thought I was only good for minimum wage jobs after graduating college. I was thrilled with any type of job actually. In my mind, I thought retail or janitorial work was minimum wage and anything in the office is considered "above" people. This is a good transition to my next point.

-Not being attached to things or job title
I used to validate myself over things and job title. When I got a job, I didn't know what to do with money. I thought it would give me some meaning if I bought things. I remember throwing myself out there buying this and that with no thought behind it. I didn't know what to do with my time. I didn't know what made me happy. I just simply existed. Also, I was consumed by job titles. I wanted to feel important. I wanted to feel like I am making an impact. I wanted to feel busy with tons of things to do. I felt so small with a low leveled job. I felt pity for myself seeing everyone with amazing jobs and then here is me, with some job that anyone can do with a college degree. I felt like all the work I put into school was wasted. I found that it's not the case! I just need to think of what I can do for the world rather than looking at it for an external reward (status or money). 

-Overcame imposter syndrome.
I remember feeling like I forget things and now being able to get the life I want because of my memory issues. I think I was in school mode where I don't have any tests to measure what I know anymore. I started realizing that I do have things in my brain. I just need to reflect on what I know. I also need to quiz myself if I am learning anything as I am no longer in school. When I am able to retrieve info, I'm able to keep that info long term.

-Self reflection

-Growth mindset


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