A little socializing

I don't socialize often outside of work/school, so when I do-- it's refreshing! I don't go out of my way to do it as I think the logistics isn't worth the little to no benefit in certain kinds of people. I was associated with people that didn't help with my growth. One in particular is when you are hanging out with someone and they are talking on the phone. I honestly can't be bothered with someone like that.  I think it's rude when they aren't enjoying your company. I like being mentally connected with person if that makes sense. I am very selfish with my time now and very conscious of who I let people in my life. We (me, my Uncle and mom) went out and ate chinese food. We just talked about life in the city, food, etc. I know we all have our differences in how we live our lives-- that's the beauty of humans. Sometimes it's hard to comprehend that other people can be so different; we need to just accept and appreciate the diversity on this planet Earth. It would be a boring place if everyone is same.

The conversation just makes me want to work on myself even more. I don't need to get myself out there that often. I think a couple of times a year is enough? I'm working on my mind, interests,etc.

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